Lili Saintcrow @lilithsaintcrow@raggedfeathers.com

In which the window is dark, Boxnoggin is nonplussed, and I can finally begin to live again.

Autumn Shift https://www.lilithsaintcrow.com/2022/09/autumn-shift/

Finding there are people who like you even at your dorkiest is tremendously healing.

It is a great gift in one’s life to find people you can trust enough to be vulnerable with. Especially if you were brutalized out of trusting *anyone* as a child.

Apparently I just need to do something else until the Muse gets tired of being ignored and plops the solution right in my lap.

Fortunately there’s no shortage of other tasks.

I mean, obviously I trust the book over everything else. I just have to figure out how to arrange a few elements. And naturally the goddamn Muse is no help. She’ll wait until I’m doing something else to present the solution.

Only realized what the problem is during the past hour. The editor says the book is wrong, the book insists it is right.

I’m the dumb bitch in the middle.

Been slamming my head against this revision all day, to the tune of a measly 200 words.

Some days are like that.

But don’t fret! If Twitch is still misbehaving on Friday, I’ll just do it live on YouTube. (Change is as good as a rest, and all that.)

I’m super sorry about this. Maybe a squirrel chewed a cord somewhere near Bezos’s secret lair.

And if that’s not enough, my “reading Victorian erotica with a straight face” project is over here. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCpfKaUuX3C71L0DbutzdK0Q

In the meantime, there’s old Reading with Lili sessions (and the teas) over on YouTube. https://www.youtube.com/c/LilithSaintcrow1/featured

Sorry, guys. Due to the Twitch outage, there will be no Reading with Lili today.

If they manage to fix the problem by Friday we’ll do it then. What a bother; I was so excited, and have been preparing for a solid week.

Perhaps relying on Amazon to provide infrastructure (when they are notoriously bad at it, and furthermore fuck up real-world infrastructure by being a greedy billionaire's sucking black hole) is a bad idea.

You can watch on Twitch when it goes live (in a wee bit, still prepping), and it’ll go up on YouTube a day or so afterward. DRACULA, HO! https://www.twitch.tv/lilithsaintcrow

I mean, there’s the whole bonkers Henry Irving angle, not to mention the Florence Balcombe and Oscar Wilde thing, Stoker’s friendship with Sheridan Le Fanu—and that’s not even going into the text itself!

I’m prepping for today’s Reading with Lili. We are going to have SO MUCH FUN talking about Dracula today, my beloveds.

The bluejays are back to screaming in the backyard, after a short mutinous silence when I took Boxnoggin out after lunch.

I believe they are using forthright—indeed, almost unbecoming—language.

They’ve been joined by two robins, a lone female bluejay, and a squirrel who seems very unconcerned at being outnumbered.